|Wednesday, September 10th, 2003|
To the love of my life....
Tommorrow is the day I'll never forget cuz that is the day I fall in love with you. I love you with all of my heart and soul and I never want you to forget that. I want to spend the rest of my days and nights with you either having good or bad times. You make me feel complete and I never want to lose this feeling. Please say that you will be around for the rest of our life together. I'm looking forward to the day that we take that final step of becoming commited to eachother forever, than follows little Evan...lol...anyway, I love you babygirl...I always have and I always will...you are my babygirl now and forever :)
I LOVE YOU!!!! Current Mood: horny
|Monday, September 8th, 2003|
|WORKING SO MUCH
JUST WORKING MY ASS OFF, I'VE WORKED 57 HOURS IN 6 DAYS....SO TRIED..AND STILL LOOKING FOR AN APARTMENT WITH BRANDI SO I'M SORRY IF I DON'T WRITE MORE OFTEN BUT I PROMISE I WILL SOON....I'M SURE BY THAN I'LL HAVE A BUNCH OF SHIT TO SAY....LATER Current Mood: exhausted
|Thursday, September 4th, 2003|
|I know long time no write....lol
WOW, I'm finally back to my happy little world and loving every mintue of it. Brandi and I are doing great just doing the fun stuff like apartment hunting and Brandi is job sreaching....I'm the lucky one cuz I have a great job already....Anyway, I don't have much to say right now just wanted you all to know I'm still living...Ivonne hasn't killed me yet, but I'm sure she is wanting to cuz I'm such a BIG BITCH....LOL....let you know when i have news...Later...Love and peace :) Current Mood: bitchy
|Wednesday, August 27th, 2003|
|Another big Change
Well after many hours of talking about Brandi and I have decided to make a big move in our relationship....we are moving closer to my family. All that we want is to be happy and start a fresh new life together so we will be doing this by moving away from our past and starting all over in a big city close to my family. So I got a offered a new and exciting job and Brandi will sreach for one, which she will have no problem finding one and our new and exciting adventure will be on the way to a great new life together. All I have to say is Adios IL hello new exciting bigger city close to my family.....Aren't new adventures exciting :)
Babygirl, I love you with all my heart and soul and I am looking forward to this new exciting adventure with you...I know that this is going to be great for us and remember that I am not only your partner but your best friend...I love you sweetie :) Thank you for moving on with me...we will be happy and we both know it :) Current Mood: ecstatic
|Monday, August 25th, 2003|
|Sorry for being a BITCH....
I want to say I'm sorry to my friends whom I bitched out in my last entry....I didn't mean it and I truely am sorry. Please forgive me :) It is just damn I deserve to be happy and if Brandi makes me happy than you should be happy for me...right...that is all I want is to be happy with my one true love and live a long and happy life with her and my friends....Can you understand that?
I love you babygirl...don't you ever forget that :) Current Mood: content
|Sunday, August 24th, 2003|
|What the FUCK??
What is wrong with people commenting in my journal....NOTHING...if they aren't a member of live journal than they can't say who they are except for in there comment....and why would this bother any of my friends...if it is going to bothering anyone shouldn't it be ME?
You know I have made a major decision in my life the past week and it was to take my ex Brandi back into my life as my girlfriend. Yes, she hurt me in the past but I know how she really truely feels this time and I know she isn't in this to hurt me again...so to all of you out there that are having a problem with this "FUCK OFF" it is my life and my decision....I love her and I have always loved her...she will be the one I spend the rest of my life with, So either deal with it or stop talking to me I don't give a fuck anymore...ALL I WANT IS TO BE HAPPY and she makes me happy......so deal with it or leave me alone!!!!!!!!
I love you Babygirl forever and always....:) Current Mood: infuriated
|Saturday, August 23rd, 2003|
|Finally, I have her back....
Finally after a bunch of going though hell and back I have my one true love back in my life. Brandi and I are back together and are VERY happy. I am so glad I can stop living the lie I have been living all this time telling myself that I could get over Brandi but thr truth is I NEVER got over her. Now that I have her back in my life as my partner I am never going to let her go and I will do everything in my power to keep her. Brandi, my love...I love you more than I have ever loved someone and I want to start a fresh life with you...I know we will be happy and I know I can make you happy...all I want is a promise that you will be true to us and never give up on what we have babygirl.....I love you :)
God it feels so good to have her back in my life the way I have always wanted her....Now I know I will be happy for the REST of my life....Love is a great thing when it is with someone you truely love and care deeply for....awwww what a great feeling :)
Oh yeah thanks Ivonne for bringing me my things even though you didn't have to...we appecaited it...thanks again :) Current Mood: loved
|Friday, August 22nd, 2003|
|SORRY...I never meant to hurt anyone
I just wanted to tell Ivonne and that I am really sorry for hurting her the way I have done. I do care about her and all I wanted to do was to make her happy. I want her to be ok and I believe one day she will look back on all of this and thank me cuz she will find a better woman that will treat her the way she deserves. I do know and believe that she does care about me and does love me since she wrote that in my last entry comment area so I want her to know that I do know that she does care and that I am really sorry. I just didn't want to fight anymore....we are both happier now or will be happier now...I just wish we could put all this behind us and be friends at least cuz she is a caring person and a wonderful person. Now all I ask her is that we can talk so I can get my things back from her so that we both can go on about whatever we have plannned with ourlifes. My only question for her is WHY did it take you having me leave for the weekend for you to realize really how you felt about me??? Why than did you decide to take steps into saving this relationship and why did you take the step to start working closer to home??? Just want you to know I do care about you and that I am not a cold hearted bitch that you may think I am....hope you are doing well. Please lets come to some agreement on getting my things back to me....later and again I am SORRY Current Mood: stressed
|Thursday, August 21st, 2003|
|Bring on the TRUTH baby....LOL
Well isn't it interesting that once you break up with someone the TRUTH always comes out on how the really feel.....but do I believe it or think it is a bunch of shit.....SHIT is what it is I think. Anyway, so everything is going good for me now...all I have to do is find a place to live...and somehow talk to my ex and figure out how I am going to get all my things back from our old place...but can she be an adult about it and talk to me about it....now that is the question??? But who knows I'll have to find out later on tonight now won't I.
I miss talking to my friends on MSN messenger and wish that they would install yahoo so we can still talk...HINT HINT...but just want them all to know I'm doing good and trying not to let certain things upset me or bother me in anyway...I'm going to go chill now and will write more later...hope all is well with all of you and look forward to hearing from all of you soon....hugs, kisses and peace... Current Mood: amused
|Wednesday, August 20th, 2003|
After many long hours of thinking and thinking some more I have decided to stay in Lincoln and live here with my other family. I have gotten a job already working in a child care center being a teacher for the three year old children...I'll be making 7.75 an hour plus I get all kinds of benefits. Also I'll be getting day hours which is something I have always wanted. Now for the girl I have been seeing and living with...well I have decided that it would be better for the both of us to go our departed ways since all we seem to do anymore if fight. I know this will hurt her and she will think it isn't hurting me either but I do believe it is better for the both of us. She will probuarly hate me but I want her to know I don't hate her and would never hate her...I do care about her I just don't want to fight anymore...hopefully she can forgive me for breaking her heart cuz I am sorry....talk more later...peace and lots of love everyone... :) Current Mood: nauseated
|Monday, August 18th, 2003|
|HAVING A BLAST
I'm having a blast here in Lincoln spending time with my friends and family.....I know I was suppose to be home today but I decided to stay longer cuz I'm going to go see a friend in drag...it will be kool...I'm also thinking about someone special and missing them...I want her to know that I love her and don't want her to ever forget it!!!! I love you babygirl :) Oh yeah I got my hair cut today and I love it...it is all one lenght now just below my chin :) Current Mood: ecstatic
|Tuesday, August 12th, 2003|
|Blah Blah Blah
Well this has been a very interesting past 24 hours....but at least now I have some sense of what is going on. This weekend I'm going to my friend Brandi's. It should be fun, but I will miss my girl. We have decided to have a weekend away from one another. She is going to rest this weekend and I am going to hang out with my friend and who knows whatelse. Even though I am going to hate being away from her taht long I know it will do us both some good....All I want is for her to know I love her with all my heart....I love you baby :) Current Mood: confused
|Monday, August 11th, 2003|
|Oh why does the weekend go by so FAST????
I really hate that the weekends they go by so dang fast...I mean how are you suppose to spend any REAL time with the people whom you care so much about when once you get to spend time together it is ready for going back to work. Well anyway, I saw an awesome movie this weekend and I know I already told you all about it but it was great and now I can't wait to buy it when it is released. I'm hoping that they come out with a threesome of where you can buy American Pie, American Pie II, and American Wedding together. So anyway, my girl told me I should go apply at Farmland Foods here in town so sometime this week I'll have her take me so I can apply and cross my fingers cuz I would like to start working again soon...I'm tried of being a BUM!!!!! :) I want to make money so I can help my girl pay bills and also be able to go out and do the things we really want to do. Or at least start saving for us to be able to go somewhere special...like hummmmm Las Vegas.....LOL I know that I at least need a job so I can start saving for Christmas cuz with two little boys to buy for now, plus my sisters, mom, dad, and a girlfriend I need to make some good money....plus I know I have family and friends birthdays between now and than....Just in Dec alone I have my girl's b-day, my nephew's b-day and christmas....doesn't that suck? Hey what does it mean to be HIGH on life??? Cuz I wonder sometimes if I am "HIGH" on life.....LOL Current Mood: high
|Sunday, August 10th, 2003|
|Greatest Movie Ever
Last Night my girl and I went and seen the new "American Wedding" movie and I think it was the best one out of all the American Pie movies ever. I laughed during the whole movie and My girl was laughing so hard she almost choked to death...anyway, I would tell everyone whom hasn't seen it to go see it cuz I know you will love it...I'll write more later just wanted all my friends to know that I finally got my girl to take me to that movie like I wanted to go...later gators...peace and love :) Current Mood: horny
|Friday, August 8th, 2003|
|Crazy Crazy Crazy and Thank God it's Friday
What a crazy day it has been today.....I talked to five different telephone services today to try to get my girlfriend and I a new phone line and well these fucking people around here I tell you are dumb.....supposelly this part of IL doesn't have phone service....all I can say is CRAZY damn people. Yes, today is Friday and my weekend will start soon...my girl gets home at 1am andthan my weekend will start.....we are going to a club tomorrow night and dance our asses off so that should be fun....I still want to go to "American Wedding" and she promised me that last weekend so who knows when she will take me to that movie.....Other wise everything else id going good...just been doing a bunch of major thinking lately....mostly about like and what I want out of it....all I know is that I need a JOB soon....Have a great weekend everyone...I love you all... :) Current Mood: happy
|Tuesday, August 5th, 2003|
Just chilling and don't have much to say but I wanted to put my new icon on my journal page....I love Ani and I realy want to see her in concert....anyway, I'll write more later when I have something to say.....Later peace Current Mood: lazy
|Monday, August 4th, 2003|
|OMG it is Monday already :(
The weekend went by way too fast. Ivonne was sick so we tried not to do to much. Saturday we had to go help her mother out with something than we headed to Cedar Rapids and picked up my final check and got the rest of my things at the old apartment. We ended up leaving the futon and asked my old roommie to se if she could sell it for me. Than we headed back towards home but stopped in Burlington to get cigarettes and went to dinner. Yes I am still smoking and hoping that one day I will have the heart to stop...LOL So when we got home Saturday we ended up renting movies. Sunday all we did was run to the store to get some food for the weeks to follow and than just hung out watching movies. Ivonne wanted to rent the movie "The Stand" by Stephen King....well we ended up renting it Saturday night but on Sunday we had to go back to the place and get the first half...there were four tapes to the whole movie and we only had gotten the last two...I thought that was kinda funny. So tonight I have been putting our living room together...I collect dolphins and so our living room is dolphins and "gay pride" lol...it really looks good so I can't wait until she gets home tonight from work to show her what I did to the room. I'm hoping that by the end of the week my job hunting will come to an end....I have alreday had two interviews at Mc Donalds trying to get a manager position so I guess we will see what happens there. I have to have one more interview there before I'll know anything...now doesn't that suck...I had the waiting, but hey what can I do about it? NADA...lol Well nothing else much to say except "Brandi if you read my journal I just want you to know I'm very upset with you...you are being a bitch!!!!" I'm sorry Brandi for calling you that I just thought that you were being one at that time...Please forgive me...:) Current Mood: bitchy
|Saturday, August 2nd, 2003|
|IT'S THE WEEKEND :)
So it is finally Saturday and I'm so excited cuz I'm spending the day with my girlfriend. I'm not taht excited about what we will be doing but hey at least I'm spending time with her. How fun is it to drive 2 hours away and pick up all my shit that is in my old apartment that is still there and drive back 2 more hours and than put the crap away? But at least after today I will be all the way moved in with my girlfriend the way I want to be...it will feel more like home, not that I don't feel at home already but I'll just have ALL my things here so it will be a better feeling. I'm hoping that we can go out and spend the evening together out doing something that we both would enjoy doing...weather it is going to a movie or whatever else...all I care about is that I'm with my girl....well I better be going write more later...have a great weekend to all my friends...peace and love :) Current Mood: cheerful
|Friday, August 1st, 2003|
|YES, IT IS FRIDAY
I'm so happy today is Friday...actually I'll be even happier at 1am Saturday morning when my girl gets home from work, cuz I get to have her all to myself all weekend... :) This morning was a great morning...we got up and headed out to pay bills, went to Wal-Mart and shopped a bit and than she took me out for lunch. My poor baby was so tried when we got back I told her to take a bit of a nap before work...I hope that she will be ok when she drives home tonight cuz if anything ever happens to her I have NO clue what I would do....so tomorrow I'm going to let her sleep in so that we can have a great weekend together not that I don't think we wouldn't have one but this way I know we will. LOL....I know that we have to go to Cedar Rapids Iowa this weekend to get the rest of my things and have a talk with my old roommie, plus we also have to pick up my check at my old job cuz the "fuckers" won't mail it to me. I'm hoping that we can go out and do something as a couple this weekend also. Either going to see the movie I really want to see,"American Wedding" or going out to the club dancing...all I know is taht I want to go out and do something fun with my girl.....Sunday night I'm going to talk her into renting some movies...we were talking last weekend I believe about scary movies and how I hate them but she started talking about a movie that is based on a true story....so I'm going to talk her into renting scary movies so i can hug into her all night....lol....well don't have much more to say so I'll write more later......bye bye....peace and love :) Current Mood: hyper
|Wednesday, July 30th, 2003|
|Is It Friday Yet?
God how I wish it was Friday...I am so ready to spend quality time with my girlfriend. Plus I am excited about going and seeing the new "American Wedding" movie and my girl promised me she would take me to it. I believe we are also going to my old apartment in Iowa and getting the rest of my things so that I will be all the way moved in with my sweetie...I can't wait. This has been the best three weeks I have had and I owe all the thanks to my girl. She makes me so happy and I believe this is the happiest I have been in a very long time. The last time I was this happy was in 1999 when my nephew was born. This is the first time I have been in love and know for a fact that my partner loves me as much as I love her. I believe that I will be happy for the rest of my life now cuz I have my dream girl...someone who loves me for me, treats me the way I deserve and want to be treated and wants the same things out of life that I want and of course I do all the same things in return for her. She is my baby and I feel like I'm the luckiest girl alive to have her as mine. So see why I love spedning time with my girl..."Love is in the Air" in my life...lol... I love you Baby :) Now is it Friday yet? LOL
I'm also looking forward to Aug. 9th I believe it is cuz I'm hoping and praying that Ivonne and I go see my family that weekend. It is the Iowa State Fair and I really want to go there with my sisters, my brother-in-law, my nephew and Ivonne. I haven't been to the Iowa State Fair in over two years plus I have always wanted to go there with my nephew so we can hang out together...now I have it good..my nephew will be with me and my girl...so I'll be really happy that day :)
OMG, I'm going to die....there are two concerts coming up that I really want to go to. Melissa Etheridge is having a concert in Cleveland,OH on Aug.23rd and Ani DiFranco is having a concert Nov. 22 in New York,NY and I really really want to go to both of them but I know it will depend if my girl and I can afford it and if we have time to go to them. I guess I will have to do some major sucking up to my girl and working a bunch...lol I won't have to suck up but I will anyway. I know for a fact that I have a good chance cuz she will say" I'll think about it, since it isn't Shakira"...LOL..my girl hates Shakira..I think it has a bunch to do with the way I act when I hear her music or see her videos...lol
Now I have to start shopping for my mother's birthday present also soon cuz her birthday is Aug. 24 and I believe she will be 47...but I am not sure...I have no clue what I will get my mother...is loves Bunnies so I know it will have something to do with bunnies but not quite sure what it will be....guess I better start looking. Well I'm done tpying my fingers off....peace to all my friends...have a great night or day which ever...lol :) Current Mood: excited